Shoonya

Shoonya antar ka,
Aaj mujh se bol pada.
Mujhe sunai diya zaroor,
Magar pehchana nahi.
Uski awaz kabhi suni jo nahi thi.
Aur sunta bhi kaise,
Main to janta hi na tha,
Ek shoonya mere antar mein basta hai.
Woh keh raha tha mujhse,
Apni us srot heen, kaal heen,
Gambheer awaz mein.
Apna astitwa mujhe raas nahi,
Apne is banjar, bezaar, khalipan se,
Mein ukta gaya hoon.
Mein ab khudkushi chahta hoon.

Meine kaha-
Tum agar shoonya ho to,
Khalipan to tumhara jeevan saar hai,
Tanhayee tumhari zindagi ke mayne hain,
Aur fir kya us khalipan mein ek shanti si nahi?
Fir tumhe shiqayat kaisi?

Hai, shiqayat hai,
Wo shanti nahi ek bhayanak cheekhta sannata hai,
Aur wo jeevan hi kya jise baantne wala koi nahin,
Wo zindagi hi kya jiski shuruat kisika khalipan ho,
Haan, tumhare andar ka wo anth heen khalipan-
Jise tum apne andar jakde fir rahe ho.
Mera janm tumhare isi khalipan se hua hai,
Aur janm ke pehle pal se hi mein,
Apne anth ki rah dekh raha hoon.

Khud ko zara tatolo,
Apne antar pe pahunch ke fir,
Apni wo jakdan todo,
Us anant, aseem, khalipan ko,
Mujh shoonya ko ,
Us ghont te cheekhte sannate se,
Mukt karo, azad karo.

Kaise karoon mein,
Kis tarah karoon mein?
Uljha sa, pareshan sa baitha tha mein.
Shoonya ne fir bola,
Magar uski awaz uski nahi thi.
Usne kaha-
Chup na baitho,
Mujh se baat karo.
Pareshan na baitho,
Mujh se baat karo.
Kuch na chupao,
Mujh se sari baat kaho.
Apni wo jakdan todo,
Sab kuch mujh se aaj kaho.

Fir kaha meine,
Ek ek kar sab kaha maine,
Khud nahi janta tha mein,
Ke apne antar mein,

Itna sab jakad rakha tha meine.
Wo sab tod tod kar,
Kaha meine.

Aur fir tumhari awaz suni
Jo kuch der pehle shoonya ki awaz thi.
Tumne sirf ek lavs kaha-
Shukriya.
Bas ek shabd kaha-
Shukriya.

Tum fir chali gayi,
Mera shoonya, tum
Ab chali gayi.
Mere antar mein ek,
Khud se bada shoonya chode,
Tum chali gayi.